Heartbroken

I just don't know right now.
It hurts and I want him to miss me.
Of course.
This sucks.

I can barely remember what it felt like when you loved me,
but I remember so well what it felt like when you held me.
It's hard to think straight
because the beating of my broken heart is just so loud.
I wish it would just
shut
up.

(And that's a lie. I can recall moments when I felt loved.)

It's just a matter of time

What you see is what you get
But what you want isn't what you're getting.

(A combination of 2 quotes. I think it fits well.)

Innocence

Life isn't so innocent.
You learn things you never wanted to know,
You say things you never wanted to admit, and
You do things you end up wishing you've never done.

People tell me I'm innocent. I wish I could just keep it that way.

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"In reality, dreams don't come true."
If that's true, then I'd rather live in a world of make-believe.

--.x

Perfection is a Flaw

I usually can't come to admit to myself that this isn't the way I want things to go, but now I think I can finally say that it's not.
So what do I do?
I know I still want to be with him. I just wish I felt more comfortable around him.
It's difficult to explain why I feel so pressured to be perfect around him.
And it always makes things awkward.
So I wish I wasn't striving for perfection so much.
I want to be imperfect.

Weird, huh?

(Yeah yeah, it's yet ANOTHER post about him. xD Sorry.)

All that you are

"You aren't what I was expecting."
But you're exactly what I expected you to be.
Because I hadn't set any expectations.
"You're not the person I thought you were."
But you're exactly the person I knew you were.
Because you're you.


I wanted you, not what I thought you might have been.
And that's all I'll ever ask you to be.

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I hate it when he does that.
I really do.
When he makes me feel like there's something wrong with me,
As if I'm not doing something I should be doing.
And he acts like he's perfect, when he knows he's not.
Or maybe he doesn't know.
Not like it matters, anyways.

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Princess

And she cries to herself. She's feeling hopeless. She wants out, but she's trapped by all her insecurities, like a princess in a castle.

"What's wrong with you? You're not like a princess at all. Do you think you're something special? Because you're not."

And she knows. She wishes she was something important, someone people care about.

But nobody has the time.

"The only person people need to worry about is themselves. No one needs to give you a second thought. So get over yourself."

She cries, but she submits. She's at peace with her contradicting thoughts because she knows they're always right.
She's always wrong.

(I have an idea for a storybook and one of the chapers is somewhat like this. Just in case you were wondering.)

Everything you ever wanted

I'm not who you thought I was.
I'm never going to be the person you want me to be.
But isn't that okay?
And I'm nothing entirely the girl you wish I was. And we may never see exactly eye to eye.
But I'm trying. I'm trying to be everything you ever wanted.
And I'm hoping I'll be good enough for you.
I hope that you'll still love me for me.
Even if it's not what you expected.
I'm trying so hard to be everything you ever wanted, because you mean that much to me.

(When life gives you lemons, tell the world what lemons taste like. They're not as sour as you think they are.)

Something in my mind.

It all starts with the beginning
And stops with the end, which isn't very far behind.
But somewhere in between, you find what you're looking for.

(Just had this on my mind. I hope I find what I'm looking for. <3)

Fate's lost it's grip

Fates cruel hands had one unexpected flaw: They lacked opposable thumbs. I won't submit to fate's grasp; I'll escape and make decisions for myself. Because nothing can stop me from what I'm trying to achieve.