Thinking

I don't know what I'm thinking of right now.
Which is a lie.
I just don't want to think about it.
So I'm going to think of something else.

Something I thought about once:
"How can you love someone who doesn't love you back? There's no reason for it and it results in nothing."
It's... complicated.
"It's not complicated. It's simple. And you're only hurting yourself. So why would you continue to feel that way?"

That's a really good point. Why do people continue to love those who don't love them back?
I don't have a clear answer.

Amber

I gave you my heart.
You gave me empty promises
And heartbreaking lies
That used to be my lullabies.

(I was thinking of Chris' ex-girlfriend/stepsister when I wrote this. It's from her point of view.)

I want..

I know what I want.
I want you to want me (Haha. Lyrics from a song. xD)
And I want you to mean it.
I want to hear you say "I miss you."
I want to hear you use heartfelt words
And I want you to mean it.
I want you to tell me,
But I don't want to force it out of you.

If you really mean it, you'll do it. If you don't, I'm not going to bother.

Heartbroken

I just don't know right now.
It hurts and I want him to miss me.
Of course.
This sucks.

I can barely remember what it felt like when you loved me,
but I remember so well what it felt like when you held me.
It's hard to think straight
because the beating of my broken heart is just so loud.
I wish it would just
shut
up.

(And that's a lie. I can recall moments when I felt loved.)

It's just a matter of time

What you see is what you get
But what you want isn't what you're getting.

(A combination of 2 quotes. I think it fits well.)

Innocence

Life isn't so innocent.
You learn things you never wanted to know,
You say things you never wanted to admit, and
You do things you end up wishing you've never done.

People tell me I'm innocent. I wish I could just keep it that way.

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"In reality, dreams don't come true."
If that's true, then I'd rather live in a world of make-believe.

--.x